Don't Know Much

Don't Know Much

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Sound the 'cheese' alarm, right? Aaron Neville and Linda Rondstadt pairing up for a sappy '80s duet. But, tonight in the car, as it came up on my iPod (yes, I have it on my iTunes- one of several of the "Best of the Duets" of the '80s) it held such a different meaning for me. It was like an affirmation from this morning and a sweet simple reminder.

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This morning, as I drove in to work, I was thinking of how much I've just felt as though I'm really struggling... and have for some time now. Struggling to find God. Struggling to hear. Struggling to find peace. Struggling to have faith.

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And that's when it occured to me. Like a small still voice telling me "You keep fighting so hard to 'find your faith', when you've never really lost it. Quit beating yourself up. If you still believe, you've got faith enough. Faith of a mustard seed... can you say you have at least that? You wouldn't be struggling if you didn't have any faith at all. Just the mere desire is faith in and of itself."

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Such a comfort as I tend to struggle in vain! So many times, I focus so much on the feelings - or rather lack thereof - that I get wrapped up in that and feel as though I haven't any faith at all. When, if I would just turn my eyes toward Him, I would find those feelings of undeniable faith once again.

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I'm reminded of something I read by Sheila Walsh some time back: "Use the faith you have. Don't search for great faith, but it you love Me, use what is in you."

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You don't have to know it all. You don't even have to 'feel it'. All He asks is that you show up before Him with a willing heart and know that you love Him. And that is basically, all there is to know.

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Look at this face

I know the years are showin'

Look at this life

I still don't know where it's goin'

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I don't know much

But I know I love you

And that may be

All I need to know

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Look at these eyes

They never seen what mattered

Look at these dreams

So beaten and so battered

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I don't know much

But I know I love you

And that may be

All I need to know

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So many questions

Still left unanswered

So much

I've never broken through

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And when I feel you near me

Sometimes I see so clearly

The only truth I've ever known

Is me and you

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Look at this man

So blessed with inspiration

Look at this soul

Still searching for salvation

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I don't know much

But I know I love you

And that may be

All I need to know

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I don't know much

But I know I love you

That may be

All I need to know

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I don't know much

But I know I love you

That may be

All there is to know